CARRIE’S DIARY, June 2016
What do you do when you are so tired of dealing with the nonstop overwhelm and chaos that you don’t have the energy to ask for help?
– Because explaining what you are going through is too much—you aren’t even able to grasp all of it yourself, otherwise you would not be overwhelmed?
– Because you are afraid of making others uncomfortable and feel guilty about their privileges—although sometimes you also feel like shouting at them, ‘Don’t you realize how f… lucky you are you can sleep the whole night through if you want to?!’
– Because you are ashamed, because there is always someone else worse of or someone else just as worse off but doing better, so surely you must be doing something wrong?
It feels like we’ve been here before, and that’s probably true.
It’s the world of a special needs parent, and if you are in it, you know only more love can see you through.
You just have to find the strength for it.
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Cover photo by Motoki Tonn on Unsplash
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Song: The Brand New Heavies – “More Love” (thanks to Adelaide Dupont for the suggestion)
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